I miss my family especially my dad and mom. I cried and now I think I'm about to,again.
Sometimes, I ask myself, "Why am I here?"
Being an expat is not very easy. The places abroad, wherever in the world, we go to work promises brighter future, greener pastures. As an expat, I was blinded by its offer of a better life. How can you be better in a place where you are not familiar with? has a different culture from what you have? different life style you used to live back home? with peculiar people you don't completely understand? away from your loved ones? I was too late to know.
Surely, working in a different place also gives advantages, in all fairness. I was able to learn a lot of things here like different cultures and traditions. Dubai is a very diverse place. I was able to improve my comm skills. I can even talk with different accents, depending who I'm talking with, of course. This ia a place of amazing and ridiculous people. Now, I can buy things that I couldn't buy before. I am surely earning 3-4 times of what I can earn in my home country. But at the end of day, what is it to me?
Yes, my family is my inspiration. But why am I not with them? Isn't it nice, that after a long tiring day at work, you will see the smiling faces of your mom, dad and siblings and ask you how was your day? Eating with your family and friends, regardless of what is served, is such a great stress reliever rather than eating bountifully alone. Well, I don't eat alone. I am here with my sister and we feel the same about this. We are both here, working, still keeping the faith that this will give our family a better life. Money is all behind this.
It is so sad that money has become THE basic need. How can you buy food, clothing and shelter without it? Most of us would like to be a millionaire when being one we can buy everything we WANT only to find out later that money isn't everything. Money isn't really what we NEED. We are working extremely hard to earn a lot. After earning a lot of money, you lose it somewhere.
Will someone understand how I feel right now? Well, this is becoming worse. I have to stop. I just miss my family and friends and now I realized all these. How bad it is to have this feeling of longingness in a place where you still convince yourself that has a sense of belongingness? The nostalgia I am feeling right this moment, I couldn't express it better.
It could be my choice to go home, but what means do I have now? Life could be too complicated in its simple ways.
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