I am drowning.

Sometimes I wanna give up on life. There is something happening that I could not explain. Life has become a routine. A routine that is like spinning around a pole, not moving forward, not even going up.



Life is so vague that even the most intelligent people would not get life defined correctly.



Why? I think I am drowning.

Uuuy!

I am crushing on this guy from one of our vendors. He came today to replace one hard disk. Now, I can't stop smiling. He just made my day.


If the DHL guy came 4 minutes earlier, I could have walked with him out to the security gate to receive the package. ~sigh~


Why is he such a beautiful man?!

I melted.

Avoid!

Avoid negative people at all costs. If they do not want to help themselves, there's nothing that you can do to them.

Human

I found out that I am grumpy in the morning...and I have my moods too. Just a human being...expect imperfections.

Hisashiburi desu ne

Hisashiburi desu ne! O genki desu ka? Watashi wa genki desu.

Well, it's been a while.

I was too busy for the last three weeks. Fall semester started two weeks ago and it' Ramadan. Sure! Isogashikatta desu. I was so busy!

Let's summarize what happen in my life.

• I've been learning Japanese. This afternoon, it's our 4th Friday having Japanese conversational lessons. It's so fun to learn a new language. I'm always looking forward to Fridays now.
• Friday lunch. Like I said, I look forward to Fridays now not only because of Japanese lessons but the lunch before the lesson proper. We cook and eat lunch together. We serve different dishes. This afternoon we had Bhutanese food. I don't know what you call it but it was SO good.
• I get the chance to eat rice. It's been a month now that I'm not eating rice on weekdays. I only eat rice on Thursday night until Saturday lunch. It's so hard at first especially when your a rice slave but when you survive the first week without rice, it will be easier for the next days. You will no longer crave for it. Losing weight requires a lot of discipline.
• Busy, busy, busy! A lot of things come and happen in ITS office. I have to be oriented and updated in all of these. It requires a lot of physical energy, intellectual memory, life's wisdom, faith in God and a bunch of patience. No task should be forgotten and all words should be noted correctly and verbatimly if possible.
• I think I'm becoming anti-social. Just imagine yourself talking to more or less 50 different people personally and over the phone every single day. When you go out your office, even if you go to the toilet, you will see same people you spoke to inside your office. You.ll get tired talking to them saying the same things every hour or less. When I go out of our building to eat or to go home, I just don't want to talk to people when I pass by them. Don't wanna stop and mingle. Sometimes, I wanna despise them but I can't. :)
• I have a huge crush with "The IT man". He isn't from our company but he works for one of our vendors. They provide support and service to some our computers. I like the feeling. It makes me feel young.

For now, that's all! Surly, there's more to write. I just gave the highlights.

Now need to sleep. Good night! :)

w-a-s-t-e-d!

i.am.s.o.D.R.A.I.N.E.D.

oh yeah!

I may not have the power to convince, but surely I have the charms to persuade.

Stuck in a moment

"You've got to get yourself together

You've got stuck in a moment

And now you can't get out of it"

- U2

Another TOL moment

Last night, I got very upset and started talking about life's complication. Thought a lot of things this boils down to the following:

• Everyone is always given a chance. Chances are always there but it is always your choice to blow it off or not.
• In life, it is always pass or fail, yes or no, true or false, up and down, good and bad. It is just up to you where to stand.
• Things fall out to where they are because of the choices you made before it happened.
• Your decision-making ability decides how your life will turn into.
• You may be great on certain things but how great are you in using these things to move forward?
• If you cannot commit yourself to others, how do you expect someone to commit to you.
• How to be successful in life does not all the time depend on books that successful writers write. All of us want to be successful but we are all different from each other. You have different style, different attitude and character. what works for them does not mean will work for you and vice versa.
• No man is an island but it does not mean you have to depend on people every single time in every single way and chance you got.
• I believe in Oprah when she said that, "Relationship is composed of two WHOLE individual," because if you are not a complete or whole person by yourself or on your own, who are you then? and what can you do for the relationship?
• It is surely true that it takes two to tango but you should have your own individuality when it is your time to dance alone.
• The world rotates on its axis as it revolves around the sun which isn’t moving. So, don’t be the self-centered Sun because the Earth has its motion and it won’t stop for you, at least, philosophically.
• Life is fair if you know how to live it well. Can someone tell me how to live well? or perhaps, define 'well' please!

Ok 12 points taken. These were my Thinking Out Loud (TOL) realization. Whew! What kind of life do I have?! Who Am I now? All I can say is that I have changed. One day, I woke up and I am not the same person I knew I was.

* These were my own words, opinion and ideas. Feel free to share if you think it appeals or applies to you. Just do not forget to acknowledge the blog owner. *wink*

18 Aug 2009

It's Robsten!

Oh yeah! A lot of Robsten followers are probably celebrating right now because of the photos of Robert and Kristen that were just posted all over the internet. I don't need to enumerate the sites one by one because if you love Robsten, you know exactly where to find them. Ok...you gotta follow them if you do not want to be left behind on Robsten news @KStew411, @robstenlovers, @RobPattzNews and of course Ted @theawfultruth . These are just few guys to follow. There are a lot more like Radar, JustJared, Socialitelife, etc.

Ok so I was saying...photos are out! Robsten with the rest of the Twilight Saga: Eclipse cast watched Kings of Leon's concert in Vancouver. The photos are just so great because Robsten were seated shoulders to shoulders, knee to knee. They are totally enjoying the concert and needless to say each other's company. You gotta check it now! I suggest you try to check out the links above as they have different photos to share.

There's these photos where Robsten were like kissing each other or are they actually kissing each other? I know! They may be kissing or not but that's enough for me see them being themselves together enjoying the music they both love.

Sometimes, I feel bad that people take photos of their own private and personal life. I am sometimes feeling guilty of actually patronizing these photos and stories. As I fan, I definitely enjoy it. But considering Robsten's feeling on privacy issues, I bet they're not very happy about it. They can't be themselves anymore when the entire world (literally who does not know them by now?) is watching every move they make. They are human beings too who happen to have a job as actors. If I were on their shoes, I wouldn't want the same attention.

But it's too late! I am one of these people who can't sleep at night without getting any Robsten update. Actually, as I wrote in my previous post, I love these two beyond being Bella and Edward. I have read and heard so much about them. These may be all be true or not, but still! I also watch their interviews. Through those interviews, the way they answer the questions and how they react to it, you'll see what kind of person they are. They are amazing as Robert and Kristen alone.

Now, if only they will confirm that they are together, like saying it from their own lips, I probably stop... OK! gradually stop, little by little. Like pulling out the drug out of your system through rehabilitation (ok? did I just say that? LOL! I don't believe I said those words.) At least as fan, that is the best thing I can do for them. Be happy to whatever they decide to do or say. Just admit you're together Robsten so I can stop! I have to admit this hide and seek Robsten game is fun though.

That's it! That's what I feel saying right now. Robsten rules but let us not forget that they have their personal lives to live too. So please, Rob and Kristen, just admit and confirm that you are together and probably a few people will stop or be a little passive on this. You are right now the most sought-after couple in the world. Enjoy it while it lasts.